hai. malem ini gue ngerasa sepi banget. jenuh. sunyi. tapi hati gue amburadul. kaya dicabik-cabik. oh well, gue merasa tidak cukup kuat buat memejamkan mata. wuzzzzzzzzzzz
gue kadang suka mikir. kenapa hidup gue dipenuhi backstabber. atau kenapa hidup gue monoton? atau kenapa hidup gue gak bisa seindah orang lain? atau kenapa sih hidup gue selalu punya banyak masalah? jujur, gue benci masalah. dan gue benci sesuatu yang menciptakan masalah. dan gue gak bisa menyelesaikan masalah itu........
udah 3 atau 4 bulan lebih, gue selalu mikirin masalah ini. dan entah kenapa i dont even know the solution. faaak. jujur this problem kinda bad habit. pengen banget ngilanginnya. karena bad habit itu selalu bikin gue gak tenang. yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyuck
gue gak bisa benci hidup gue. kenapa? ya gimana yaaaa karena masih hidup, dan gue masih dikasih kesempatan hidup. so, i wont hate my life.
tau gak, kenapa ya gue benci sama orang yang nyakitin dirinya sendiri? i think they're too stressed out or depressed? tp gak kaya gitu juga laaah. masih banyak cara buat memperbaiki dirinya sendiri. orang-orang yang menyakiti diri sendiri itu gue anggep picik, dia gak mampu menyelesaikan masalah itu, dia gak mampu buat ngejaga emosinya supaya dia bisa ngelurusin masalah itu. atau karena cinta? menurut gue cinta gak perlu sampe segitunya, ya kalo cinta ya cinta. bukan nyakitin diri sendiri. cara kaya gitu itu cuma cari sensasi, cari reputasi. menurut gue, mending mereka ngelakuin hal yang lebih berguna supaya bisa ngembaliin sesuatu yang rusak jadi utuh lagi.
hm mungkin, yang berfikir kaya gini cuma gue doang.
thats my opinion. soooo have a nice holiday blogger! xo
{ 10:51 PM on 'what the hell' }
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
{ 8:00 PM on 'random feelings.' }
getting bored is a habit for me. and for R, of course. when we get separated with time, we always find a sensation via #msn, via Blackberry Messenger in status. so it will makes me asking why why and whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bored is always accompany us.
and today, the hardest day ever to did at school last afternoon. getting lazy for everything. sleep on a table while my teacher was teaching me. getting bored with R, because he was joking at me. getting sick because i was dizzy.
AND I HATE this routine activity!
songs today: Never Gonna Leave This Bed - Maroon5
Saturday, March 26, 2011
{ 3:18 PM on 'Rain' }
today, about 10.00 AM i was asked my mom. cause yesterday me and mom was decided to find something. absolutely, shopping for easily definition. and........ i don't know why, my mom getting sick. and it was ruin my day. bored at home. want to killing time, so i've never get bored. and time always making me sick. i hate time. time always bring something without permission.
at 2 PM i went to Mcd with R. i thought he will makes me feel better. after lunch:
R: so, where do we go now? N: idk. i just want to eat. R: argh. seriously? N: yes. R: where do we go now? N: so sorry, i don't know for the second time! R: AH. N: what? R: seriously, where do we go now? N: I DON'T KNOW!
I was............*sigh* wanna kick something! i hate that situation. seriously, i want to crying. maybe this is so exaggerating. but, i don't like that situation much. truly i'm so sorry for what just happened last minutes, R. but i'm getting fed up right now.
QUOTES: "if a guy tells about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. you don't need to give advice." -viatumblr
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
{ 9:41 PM on 'Hello, ex!' }
today. kinda bored. greeting everyone in my bbm contact. it works. everybody doing chitchat to me hahaha. and then, my friend, firli told me to makes someone of my ex to be joked. emm i never thought i will be replied. AND GUESS WHAT!!! He was reply my chat uuuuuuu:p:p:p
0_0
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
{ 6:29 PM on 'The desperated human.' }
Dear my sucks blog. i just want to share my days, cause i'm totally stressed, fed up to be 15th. i want my 17th. oh god, i cant wait too much time. but, that is my destiny. i must wait. for 2 years.
And i'm still in 10th grade. but for sure, i'm so afraid, afraid of maybe.....some teacher will says "You cant enter the gate, of course the gate of science." i cant imagine :( shame on me ya.
And you know, He has new girlfie and i think she is the real slut that he wants. Congratulations ya ;) and i'm so sorry, i cant be perfect to be your girl :)
Because I'm not that bitch like your girl :p
Saturday, December 12, 2009
{ 5:22 PM on 'Photos' }
The glasses is flying(?)
just took it yesterday
Thursday, April 21, 2011
{ 10:51 PM on '?' }
hai. malem ini gue ngerasa sepi banget. jenuh. sunyi. tapi hati gue amburadul. kaya dicabik-cabik. oh well, gue merasa tidak cukup kuat buat memejamkan mata. wuzzzzzzzzzzz
gue kadang suka mikir. kenapa hidup gue dipenuhi backstabber. atau kenapa hidup gue monoton? atau kenapa hidup gue gak bisa seindah orang lain? atau kenapa sih hidup gue selalu punya banyak masalah? jujur, gue benci masalah. dan gue benci sesuatu yang menciptakan masalah. dan gue gak bisa menyelesaikan masalah itu........
udah 3 atau 4 bulan lebih, gue selalu mikirin masalah ini. dan entah kenapa i dont even know the solution. faaak. jujur this problem kinda bad habit. pengen banget ngilanginnya. karena bad habit itu selalu bikin gue gak tenang. yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyuck
gue gak bisa benci hidup gue. kenapa? ya gimana yaaaa karena masih hidup, dan gue masih dikasih kesempatan hidup. so, i wont hate my life.
tau gak, kenapa ya gue benci sama orang yang nyakitin dirinya sendiri? i think they're too stressed out or depressed? tp gak kaya gitu juga laaah. masih banyak cara buat memperbaiki dirinya sendiri. orang-orang yang menyakiti diri sendiri itu gue anggep picik, dia gak mampu menyelesaikan masalah itu, dia gak mampu buat ngejaga emosinya supaya dia bisa ngelurusin masalah itu. atau karena cinta? menurut gue cinta gak perlu sampe segitunya, ya kalo cinta ya cinta. bukan nyakitin diri sendiri. cara kaya gitu itu cuma cari sensasi, cari reputasi. menurut gue, mending mereka ngelakuin hal yang lebih berguna supaya bisa ngembaliin sesuatu yang rusak jadi utuh lagi.
hm mungkin, yang berfikir kaya gini cuma gue doang.
thats my opinion. soooo have a nice holiday blogger! xo
{ 10:51 PM on 'what the hell' }
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
{ 8:00 PM on 'random feelings.' }
getting bored is a habit for me. and for R, of course. when we get separated with time, we always find a sensation via #msn, via Blackberry Messenger in status. so it will makes me asking why why and whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy bored is always accompany us.
and today, the hardest day ever to did at school last afternoon. getting lazy for everything. sleep on a table while my teacher was teaching me. getting bored with R, because he was joking at me. getting sick because i was dizzy.
AND I HATE this routine activity!
songs today: Never Gonna Leave This Bed - Maroon5
Saturday, March 26, 2011
{ 3:18 PM on 'Rain' }
today, about 10.00 AM i was asked my mom. cause yesterday me and mom was decided to find something. absolutely, shopping for easily definition. and........ i don't know why, my mom getting sick. and it was ruin my day. bored at home. want to killing time, so i've never get bored. and time always making me sick. i hate time. time always bring something without permission.
at 2 PM i went to Mcd with R. i thought he will makes me feel better. after lunch:
R: so, where do we go now? N: idk. i just want to eat. R: argh. seriously? N: yes. R: where do we go now? N: so sorry, i don't know for the second time! R: AH. N: what? R: seriously, where do we go now? N: I DON'T KNOW!
I was............*sigh* wanna kick something! i hate that situation. seriously, i want to crying. maybe this is so exaggerating. but, i don't like that situation much. truly i'm so sorry for what just happened last minutes, R. but i'm getting fed up right now.
QUOTES: "if a guy tells about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. you don't need to give advice." -viatumblr
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
{ 9:41 PM on 'Hello, ex!' }
today. kinda bored. greeting everyone in my bbm contact. it works. everybody doing chitchat to me hahaha. and then, my friend, firli told me to makes someone of my ex to be joked. emm i never thought i will be replied. AND GUESS WHAT!!! He was reply my chat uuuuuuu:p:p:p
0_0
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
{ 6:29 PM on 'The desperated human.' }
Dear my sucks blog. i just want to share my days, cause i'm totally stressed, fed up to be 15th. i want my 17th. oh god, i cant wait too much time. but, that is my destiny. i must wait. for 2 years.
And i'm still in 10th grade. but for sure, i'm so afraid, afraid of maybe.....some teacher will says "You cant enter the gate, of course the gate of science." i cant imagine :( shame on me ya.
And you know, He has new girlfie and i think she is the real slut that he wants. Congratulations ya ;) and i'm so sorry, i cant be perfect to be your girl :)
